Thursday, January 31, 2013

engaged people problems

spied on today's a cup of jo

thank you, patricio, for wanting to still marry me even after i had a breakdown over the fact that our save the dates are rectangle, and not square, like i had thought. 

your comforting words of "well i don't really remember what shape they were to be perfectly honest" really brought me back to reality. 

you're the bees knees.

spoiler alert. i right? 

"new girl is the first show in a very long time that portrays the reality that is growing up in your late 20s and all of it's challenges —finding a partner, a fulfilling job, one’s place in the world—it can all feel so immense that it’s a wonder humanity has survived this long. but last night’s new girl reminded us how we’ve managed: by putting aside all the fretting and just getting on with things."


Tuesday, January 29, 2013

want! need! wear! read! part 3

"the following"
did you see the premiere? omg dying to watch it tonight. it's all i can think about. 

ll bean wine tote
for extremely obvious reasons. 
via lands end

sidewalk skimmer
...and they're on sale! 
via madewell

diana style
skip the kindle and get this one in print.
it's a beautiful book about beautiful clothes and one beautiful lady.
via amazon

Thursday, January 24, 2013

the best day ever.

i received some wonderful, beautiful, and tearful news this afternoon. my most favorite cousin is going to be a momma. the best momma.

she knows me so well that as she was giggling and telling me, "i'm pregnant!" she quickly followed it up with, "and it works out PERFECTLY because i am due in july so everyone will get to meet the baby at your wedding!" 

be still my heart. 

october 12 really is going to be the best day ever.

a million congrats diana, to you and joe. we already love your little boy/girl so much. 

Friday, January 11, 2013

dear me, love me

i'm sure i am not the first bride who looks down at their guest list and thought "wow, if i would have gotten married ten years ago, this list would look so different. i didn't know some of these people even existed" and it got me thinking about my 18 year old self. and what i was doing exactly 10 years ago. and if i had any idea that in 10 short years i'd be planning a wedding. what would share with my 18 year old self if i could?

i think i would tell myself that i realize ten years sounds like a long time, and it is, but it is the perfect time for you be ready to marry. those ten years will be filled with so much joy and laughter and heartbreak and tears and adventures and mistakes, that it might make you dizzy. and the wonder of it all? it's going to be amazing.

and you might think you know the most incredibly hilarious, wonderful people right now. and in a lot of ways, you do. but just wait. and be patient. because your path is going to cross with  people whose loyalty knows no bounds.

and definitely go to jmu. and remember how easy that decision came to you. because the right ones are always easy.

and while i was at it, i would probably also also tell myself: hey, when josh jones and marissa velleco get the brilliant idea to go to dhall homecoming weekend sophomore year? don't go. and then when you go to formal with tyler, don't go anywhere near melissa josefina and/or burning candles. and when tyler tells you that you are the worst date ever, you will in fact be, the worst date ever.

and speaking of formals, join that sorority! you will love it. it will somehow make your college world a little bit smaller, and a hell of a lot of fun.

and go to block island. it will be the time of your life. you will never speak to half of those people again, but it will be a magical summer. one that somehow shines a lot brighter than the rest.

and when you find yourself sitting between your parents on the plane to chicago, hold both their hands the entire time. it will be a memory that floods your heart with warmth for the rest of your life. you don't get it now, but what you are doing is very very brave. and you will someday be amazed by it.

and that guy that you keep telling your roommates "is such a nice guy," really is a nice guy. be sure to help him drop off supplies for that service day at bethune. you will sit in the back of a van with no seat belt, rolling around as he drives 100 mph through north lawndale, paint cans will be flying all over the place, and you will think that this is normal, because the last 10 months have been anything but. and you will discuss your love for fountain sodas and his love for mcdonalds chicken sandwiches. you will someday be engaged to him. i know, so crazy right? and by the way, he hates thai food.

and the last, but most important thing i could possibly say, is to stay in chicago. even when it gets so hard to do so all you do is go home and cry.  it will become home. i know it takes you a long time to open your heart. to fall for something. be it a boy, a city, a store, a perfume, anything. and that's ok. but's something special. you and it, you're meant to be.

Thursday, January 10, 2013

want! need! wear! read! part 2.


a photo like this of me and my love
via here


via  brooklyn slate


this. entire. outfit. please & thank you.


unbroken: a world war II story
via amazon

Wednesday, January 9, 2013

28 years young

...that was the subject of the first email in this morning's inbox. birthday wishes from my four best girlfriends. and it set the perfect tone for today.

today i am 28. and it BLOWS MY MIND. time is literally flying by. i blinked and college was over. i blinked again and i had been in chicago for almost five years. i blinked a third time it will soon be patricio's one year anniversary with the state of florida.

and yet i don't feel sad. and i don't feel old. i just feel so excited.

excited that while the time has flown by, i feel that all my choices have been very deliberate, very informed, and with a lot of hard work i have intentionally created a life i love. a life that is mine. this didn't just happen. my 28 years years didn't just roll through. i have stumbled and picked myself up. i have had to right wrongs. i have said mean things about good people, i have had to apologize for my behavior, i have embarrassed myself, whether it was too much wine, too many emotions, or a combination of the two. but i've also filled those years with wonderful memories, wonderful stories, and wonderful people and while it took me a very long time to feel like an adult, now that i actually do, i am pretty happy about it.

and somehow in all of my own craziness and my intention to build a life that belonged to me, not a life that i shared, i met someone who made me want to throw that life of mine out the window. to rebuild. to create something that was ours. and i did so happily. and now, we get to do it all over, create a life that includes a baby, and a home, and roots. all of those things are now on the horizon and i am just so excited i could burst. thank you patricio, for being the icing on every birthday cake. you are the best part of everyday. and i am so excited to start this 29th year as your fiance, and end it as your wife.

Wednesday, January 2, 2013

hey you twenty thirteen

after a glorious vacation we are back in florida.

it was so great to be home with my folks and brothers. and (hold your breath everyone) this was a completely and totally drama free christmas! while the lewis family isn't really one to "fight" we do have a tendency to have what i like to call "you need a nap" moments, and this year, NOBODY NEEDED A NAP! so bravo to us!

this was also the first christmas that patricio and i spent together. and i gotta say, i loved having him with me. my parents have always liked patrick, and in my humble opinion, how can they not? the man is smart as a whip, he's catholic, and he is (was?) an eagle scout! but this visit i could tell something clicked and they embraced the fact that we are now a family of six.

and if a wonderful christmas and safe travels weren't enough, we came home and THE MOTHER FLIPPING REDSKINS WON THE NFC EAST FOR THE FIRST TIME IN 13 YEARS!

it was the perfect way to end a year that month by month brought us more joy, luck, positive change, and opportunity than any year before it. happy 2013 and hail to the redskins!

the lewis family christmas tree

soul-mates, these two.

christmas eve

new year, new name, and new initials, calls for new stationary.

christmas darling (and the carpet is not dirty, i was just not mindful of the instagram filter!)

the soon-to-be heckel family on christmas morning

fast asleep, sitting straight up.

happy 2013.